just breathe. slow, eyes closed. breathe and it will all go away.

i've learned that for a long time now that this doesnt work, nor will it ever work, at least not for me. i cant make things disappeare and appeare when i want them to. things need time for change not a night or a day, you want change then you want it forever.

something is creeping over me and i dont know if its a good or bad. i know i wont know that until its over, but maybe thats the beauty of it. i need to be alone. look at myself in the mirror and not forget what i see. i feel as if i were crying but no tears come out.